i need not say more, its gonna be less then 20 days till the final decision will be out. yet, still i cant help it, but still to miss the history, which was once a unpredictable occasion for me.

well, ive been doing lots of thinking nowadays, too many thinking indeed. the past, present and future..

the past was indeed a bliss, it was an opportunity for me to step across the sea, to look beyond the land im on.

the green men thought me alot. rizal buas made me think outside of the option there is, which does really matters in life. aizat, was there to answer all the stupid doubts i have in random stuffs. sulaiman, norudin and helmi thought me how to do well in school, and push passion to a greater height..

the noisy kids, having to work with all kinds of attitudes, style, upbringing, lifestyle and personalities had made me uo to greater height. it practically thought me how to expect people around me.

the red wheels, the were the ones been there for me for every reason there is. the good, the bad, the happy, the sad and also the mad. frankly speaking they gave me the line of hope to hold on, when i need to fall..

in all of these, i know its gone..

the present really sucks big time..

there's a new kid, well, he's like mr dolled-up but noone was going  to replaced that place. i was being told that fizzy quit his job, kadush!

red tide's last day is taoday, then he set off for ion. next vee and i know it.. he's going to paragoon. well, i wish him all the best

been busy lately with things which just randomly happen at work, at times i just feel rather pathetic cause i know i can do better. life sucks big time now..

random news flash: little sister got rushed to the hospital due to hyper ventalltilation, i got brusies on my left leg and all those random stuffs..

i had a talk with the management, talking about me quitting and continuing my studies. they were rather dissapointed that im leaving as to them im a great asset of package. kapow! i do reports, playbacks, photoshoots, communicating and all those other stuffs which some tend to be their job..

oh wells, my workmates are red-eyed by the compliments i got through my days in working. who the hell, would be recognised by the management after 2 weeks started work and when's its the first time of this line you have ever pick. im truly proud of myself..

the management suggested me to on as part-time instead of leaving. in that case i wouldnt have to hurry myself to adpat to a new job, being paid just $400 lesser, but my incentives and privillages will still be sustained. in the other hand i thought of just having to do my freelance only, which is $170 for three days..

im still considering, oh wells..

suprisingly i dream of t.l last night, a part of the dream i could remember that he needed my help, but the rest was blanked off my mind. if in reality, he needs me now or whatsoever, he knows how to get to me when mimi still can get to me there's no excuse saying that he couldnt get me. but then again, i couldnt stay for long, ive did waited, but i guess the wait will soon have to end just awaiting the right time..